It is a sad moment when you hear from your mother that your household only makes ~20k a year.
What my ideal situation would be right now:
David and I sitting in a hotel in Amarillo, Texas. An older one that’s been there since the 40’s or 50’s. Curled up watching game shows and talking about what we’d like to do tomorrow. Being able to go to Jimmy’s shop and making sure my father doesn’t have to sit there in silence. Help him make phone calls. Get him a drink from his favorite tea place. Getting him lunch. Showing David why I love that disheveled city. Finding ways to help out my father and Jimmy/Jimmy’s family.
My situation right now:
Sitting in my bedroom alone, wishing my speakers would play One louder. Contemplating everything I have to do to simply get David here, how that is all going to work out. Along with wondering how far I am away from being who I want to be. How far away I am from comfort. Worrying my father is too alone in the situation he was dropped into. Feeling useless because all I can do is respond to updates on Jimmy. Wanting to move to Amarillo and do tattoos, wander deserts, explore places in my heart town.
There is a high chance that I will experience what it is like for someone you actually cared for to die in the near future.
A man I only knew for a few hours, but is worth 30 some years.
Time to see what the next chapter holds.
Joe Rogan- Marijuana & Life Tips!
I don’t care if you are against marijuana or indifferent to it, this video is incredibly insightful.