No make up again today and I feel hideous. It gets worse before it gets better, right?
And let’s ignore feeling fat. Not fat but pudgy. Unattractive. Not flat.
Fuck.
It doesn’t matter if you are under weight you can still feel fat.
I am trying working to let go of my anger and the unnecessary parts of pride in attempt to keep moving forward in my life.
To continue on this new path through the forest, which I have searched for an eternity it seems.
I am trying seeking to better myself.
I have not worn make up since Thursday. And I force myself to look and given reason to why it’s fine.
This is my new assay of Beau. A try at a changed perspective.
Sorry, I ran out of synonyms for “try/trying,” hubby.
Goals:
- Everything I need for my new computer set up. {$1,200}
- New phone. {$200}
- Cigar Box Guitar and learn how to play it. {~$100}
- More me-focused clothing. {$???}
I have decided I am going to go after it.
Whatever ‘it’ may be.
I will take art classes while I’m still in high school, thus building my portfolio.
Search for/start a tattoo apprenticeship.
Write.
Become a great tattoo artist.
All the while focusing on doing things that are of my benefit, and always improving myself.
Going to start focusing on my fashion more also. I feel like I have wander a bit too far from where I want to be.
I’m going to start wearing my corset more often, and I’m going to go shopping soon for new pants and more clothing. Clothing that makes me feel proud, beautiful, refined.
I’m getting closer to my next goal. Though I fear it will be about a month until it’s accomplished.
Maybe once I’m Beau,
then my followers will talk to me
Why talk to an ugly person,
Right?
He closed the door, and the light from under the wooden panels, between the stained carpet and the hardwood floors of the room beyond, illuminated the hallways between the two rooms. From behind the door, there was muffling as he dragged himself onto his bed, fully clothed, to doze off into sleep….
This… it’s perfection.
Who is the guy, though?
Pardon the color, but this is the video I took of Becca getting her venoms done.
The piercer was in the way while I was taping the second one, so I have three minutes of footage of his back, but I got the first one pretty clearly so here you are~
Oh lookie, it’s me :}
- video. mine. my videos. apalace. beau. venoms. piercing. tongue piercing. double tongue piercing. piercing video. me.
- apalace. beau. black and white. playground. me.
- eyebrow piercing. piercing. venoms. tongue piercing. eyes. girl. apalace. beau. collar. choker. tongue. becca. :3. black and white.
